Yesterday. I went to an infant education/prep categorise that my company provides on a regular basis for expecting parents. Classes are held once a month and topics be from shopping and preparing for the baby to reviewing newborn characteristics and behaviors. Yesterday's class was about the unexpected things that can come about to you during pregnancy like having to go on bed be or being diagnosed with preecclampsia. It's really a pretty nice convalesce and something I'm glad that is available to me.
Yesterday was my first categorise since I've registered with the schedule and I went in as a "newbie" not knowing entirely what to evaluate. When I arrived there were about 8 other women in attendance along with the categorise instructor. I took a seat alongside them around a large conference delay.
The class instructor asked us all to inform ourselves and as we went around the room. I began to cognise that everyone else was much further along in their pregnancies than I am and that I was the only one at the delay who wasn't visibly pregnant.
As the instructor talked about the topic of the day she periodically made compose to symptoms or events that happen at various stages during pregnancy. As she did this she would act a survey of the room to see how many people were affected by something like swelling of the feet or gestational diabetes. In every inspect everyone was able to say yes or no and then she would be at me and say "It's too early for you to be experiencing that yet" or "You won't undergo to deal with that for a few more months".
First of all. I have to say that the instructor was nothing but polite and kind when she was saying these things to me; however it made me crazy!! I know that this is COMPLETELY irrational and ridiculous but I felt like a complete underachiever! It was like being back in educate and it was that one day that you were caught not doing your homework from the night before and the teacher totally called you out on it. I was actually sitting there in that conference room mentally trying to evaluate out how I could abstain forward to a later point in my pregnancy so I wouldn't be "that girl" who couldn't participate in the discussion. Or maybe. I'm just a really quick learning and mature pregnant person and I'll get to some of these symptoms and phases earlier than others.
Uh yeah. I cognise that this is a complete sickness and just my Type-A desire to be in control coming through. So. I get it. Being pregnant is something that I actually don't undergo any control in and that this is nature at its beat trying to express me to let go and just live in the moment. Good lesson to learn now because I experience that I'm not going to be able to be in hold back every minute when this little one comes in May (although. I'm not saying I still won't try!).
The only thing that's choose of scary about this is that while it's completely OK for me to want to be an overachiever (change surface when the circumstances are completely ridiculous to do so). I don't want to make my kid (conclude horrible not having a label that's more endearing.. maybe when we sight out if its a boy or girl) feel like he/she has to or should do as well. I really don't picture myself being that write of parent the one that's always telling their kid to act trying until they undergo it ameliorate so that gives me some peace. But who am I to know until I'm really there? I thought I'd also love being pregnant and apply every minute (which I actually really am right now) but then the absurd craziness kicks in. What's to forbid that from kicking in when there's a living breathing child with real life things going on?
I guess that's not really something for me to evince about at this point and just something for me to keep in mind as that measure comes around. Eh.. blame all the craziness on the pregnancy hormones and wish that its just a passing arrange :)
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